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3 am
05:42
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It's 3 am and I can't sleep again
There's too much trouble on my mind
And as I toss and turn when will I ever learn
True peace is hard to find
So I slip out of bed - feels like a dream instead
As I make my way down
Put on my coat and shoes with one last check or two
And I leave without a sound
And in the stillness of the night my soul gives up the fight
And when I finally let go I find what I've been looking for
Chorus:
I can feel you are near as I walk beneath the stars
And I find your peace of mind as you calm my frenzied heart
In the darkness of the night
I've found your guiding light for my way
And I'll be okay
I've walked this road before, I'm not worried anymore
I'm with an old familiar friend
They say this too shall pass, hard times never last
Salvation's coming round the bend
'Cause when the world I walk is silent and no one is around
It's then when I wander restless in the hours before dawn that
Chorus
Looking at the night sky wondering why some things have to be
But under the stars I don't have to look far for a reason to believe
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2. |
Table for One
03:43
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Who knows why some things end
One day you're in love, the next you're just friends
Who knows why things fall apart
Like you and me and now my broken heart
I don't know why you said goodbye but I'll try to get by without you
Chorus:
My days are lonely, my nights are long
I don't know how I can go on
But I guess I'll have to 'cause now that you're gone
I've gotta get used to a table for one
Who knows if things will ever change
Why time heals all wounds but the memories remain
Who knows if the pain makes me strong
Like a lesson in life was the plan all along
I don't know when I'll be fine but I'll try to survive without you
Chorus
That's the funny thing about life
There's always some unexpected surprise
But I'll never let you see me cry
If you're over it, so am I
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3. |
Leap of Faith
04:39
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I'm feeling frightened, my senses are heightened
When will the lights turn on
Anticipating, how I hate waiting
'Cause I feel my courage fading
Don't you understand you with the master plan
You hold my dreams in your hand
And I can't see what is meant to be so please be kind to me
Chorus:
And if I seem wary it's 'cause I find it scary
To want to take a leap of faith for you
And if it feels crazy it's because maybe
I want to take a leap of faith for you
I'm lucky I know but still I need to grow
I've got a long long way to go
I need help believing that all that I'm dreaming
One day, some day could happen
And now here we go though I wish you'd show me
All the things I want to know
But that's not the way that you choose to play
So take my fears away
Chorus
Could it be you've got me right where you want me
If I hold on I can't go wrong
One day I'll see
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4. |
Traveling Light
03:59
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I know that look on your face
Different person, different place
But the feeling it brings is the same
I can't ignore the hope in me
What if this is the same old story
How can I let go of what I know
Chorus:
So tonight I'm traveling light
I'm ready to love, redefined
Out of sight, out of my life, out of my mind
It's time to travel light
Go somewhere I've never been
Disregard all the things I had planned
Let you see me for who I really am
I know this may sound crazy
But you could be the one to save me
Time will tell if you're all you seem to be
Chorus
Take it as it comes and goes
What's ahead is all we'll know
It's never felt this good to just let go
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5. |
Even If
04:15
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21 days to go and I don't know where my brain is
There's too much going on
I'm overwhelmed with all the many changes
The future's in front of me and I can't see where I'm going
Don't know what's around the bend but honestly I don't mind not knowing
All my bags are packed
And I can't look back
Chorus:
'Cause even if I stand still
The world around me never will
Time slips through my hands the days just fly
And even if I wanna stop
This little girl is all grown up
Wondering how her life's gone by
Wasn't it just a dream
'Cause to me it seems I'm just waking
A little wide-eyed, untried
On this journey that I am taking
So many have gone before
But more and more I feel like I'm the first one
But I'm not afraid my fears have faded now that I've begun
It's all in the past
And I won't look back
Chorus
And you make your choices despite the voices
That tell you that you're wrong
And every day you make your way
That's how you learn to be strong
That's how you learn to go on
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6. |
This Sacrifice
04:21
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You're half a world away
And I'm sending you my heart tonight
I can't let you know my fear
Or the thought this might not turn out right
But I left you for the chances that the world could offer me
And I asked you to trust the day would come
Chorus:
So until we see each other home
Hear my promise and hold on tight
That no matter what or where I am
You've been worth this sacrifice
You've been worth this sacrifice
I pray you'll remember me
And the things I said to keep inside of you
And thought I don't feel that free
I swear I'm working toward the better life
But I left you for the chances that the world could offer me
And I asked you to trust the day would come
Chorus
We'll be together once more
And things will be just like they were before
Your bed is ready, the city's waiting for you
And I am here waiting too
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Beautiful Indeed
03:32
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It's so hard to find it
If I look in the mirror it's not there
Why do I try so hard
I know it's got to be somewhere
Some elusive quality
Somewhere deep inside of me
Chorus:
I want to be something new
More like you
I wanna be truly beautiful
There needs to be less of me
So who they see is beautiful indeed
It's not in all I've done
When you strip it down it's just a list
But in the littlest things
Like loving you and her and him
Because you are all I need
I can be if I believe
Chorus
It's so hard to find it
It's got to be somewhere
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8. |
My Turn
04:09
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You said you'd always be there
You'd always care for me
But as time's gone by I've gotten wise to all your lies
And now I can see
That what can hurt is lip service
Don't say things that you don't mean
And now my heart's been torn apart
By someone who's not what they seem
Chorus:
I can forgive and let live but it's harder to forget
And you ask me do I want you back
Well I'm not ready yet
I may be slow to learn but it's my turn to play the game
And if I stay can you say
If things will change or stay the same
I know people aren't perfect and I'm the worst of them all
But I just can't believe that you could leave me set up for a fall
I've watched my world crumble as I tumbled into despair
And when I needed you most I learned my trust was a joke
You couldn't bother to be there
Chorus
When anger seems so justified
How can forgiveness be so blind
Holding on to stubborn pride
I can let it go
But I hope you know
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9. |
With Me Always
05:07
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Sometimes I just have to wonder why life can be so hard
But when I'm tempted to give up you remind me you've brought me so far
There are days I don't know what I should do
So every day I pray you'll see me through
Chorus:
You are with me always
And on you I will wait
For you know all my days
And I won't be afraid
Oh come what may
You are with me always
And when my world is full of sadness
I'm drowning in the madness of life
You come to pull me from the darkness
Mend my heart and make things right
And I know that I will always need you
And I know I couldn't live without you
Chorus
Nothing can come between us
That's a promise I can trust
And for anything that happens in this world
I know your love will be enough
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10. |
Journey
04:45
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Life is the lengthy road I travel
There are so many others
Yet it's so very solitary
And I
I tend to hesitate
'Cause I would hate to be wrong
And miss the path that I should be on
Chorus:
But every day
You lead the way
With just enough light for me to see where I should walk next
And I'll keep going
Though I don't know where the road will lead
But I believe
You're guiding me on this journey home
Love - the elusive prize
What we chase and we desire
As we walk these twisted pathways
And I
I've come to realize
It's been there all along
It's in the one who leads me on
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Rachanee Lumayno Los Angeles, California
Rachanee Lumayno is an actress, voiceover artist, screenwriter, avid gamer, and amateur dodgeball player. She grew up in Michigan, where she spent way too much of her free time reading fantasy novels. Heir of Amber and Fire is her first novel. You can find her online at www.rachanee.net or on Twitter, TikTok, or Instagram (@rachaneelumayno). ... more
